Art and the Abyss

A bunch of stuff is coming to light right now. So I have not had an employer other than myself for the past 6 months. I have been actively seeking employment, working as an assistant , volunteering  in the community, and checking out my overall options. What I have found is that creating something to sell someone loses it’s heart when you are dependent on that to make your income. Art loses it’t heart when you have to make it to survive. So what I mean by that is I felt a lot more pressure to mass produce things and create what I thought people wanted. So it wasn’t really “Bianca Torres Art” anymore. It was more like here is something I made PLEASE buy it! I am not much of a sales person, I could sell a product or service, but it is not easy to sell yourself. Maybe that is a good thing since I do not own myself I can not sell myself. 🙂 Only God can provide me favor with people. I used to want to be a movie star when  I was a kid. I am so glad that didn’t work out for me because I have heard what people have to do to be famous.

Okay, so I don’t want fame, fortune would be fantastic. Even just some steady income would be fantastic. So I am getting a part time job I went on an interview and I think it went really well. I had a dream last night that they called me to come “pick up my key” and in my dream I hadn’t even interviewed yet, so I was like “Really?”. I think this new position would provide a challenge for me. I am really excited and pray that they call soon. 🙂

So what will I do with my new riches you ask? Well #1 get caught up on bills, #2 I want to try Sky Candy out. That looks like something I would LOVE! and I want to get some of Just Jill’s lip paint too!


They called I am hired FULL TIME!